i think you can't wait for someone to
fly underneath you & save your life...
I think you have to save yourself.
   --Greys Anatomy

The thing is. i dont know how to.  Trust me i really did try, and now i'm too frustrated to even start saving my failing ass.  I know what you all are going to say, "god ali, it's just mocks! take it easy!" For some reasons, i cant.  I put myself under so much pressure, my dear friends have also unnoticedly gave me a lot more pressure [i'm not blaming them, because i respect how smart/agressive/hardworking they are], but you know what, the process doesnt even matter, nobody can care less about what situation you are in either. It's the result that counts.

I'm really trying not to break.  I'm still trying to fight.  But you know, I dont know how long i can stay strong for, because it seems that nothing can take me to the top.

ali

wow cherry.

thanks for getting me busted.